Culmination

When things come together they can also fall apart. If you pack a snowball too tightly, pieces of it fall off. Such is the way that the last few days have gone for me. Some things finally have come together for me which in turn has caused other things to fall apart. Anyone who has been deeply involved in my life as of late knows exactly what I am talking about. Others that know me still can probably have a general idea of what I mean. I want to pick up the pieces that have fallen off, and put i back together, but this is an impossible task. I have said it myself that these types of things are a lot of work and are extremely emotional and stressful and wonderful and special and awful all at the same time, but since this is the first time I have been in this situation in well over a year, I have forgotten just how true it really is. I cannot believe that I am going to screwed over again, for if I do, my life will officially be absurd. If things fall apart soon and this summer is a crappy one, than I think it will probably carry over into next year. And I don't want to have the stress of back home follow me out into Virginia where things are going well. Unfortunately I live two lives. One in Colorado and one in Virginia. I wish I could just focus on one right now, but when things are calm in one life of mine, they fall apart in another. I hope its not too much to ask for but, if god reads my blog (and I think he did recently), I would hope I could have two of the best weeks of my life, so that when I go home this summer, things out there won't bother me so much. So....I don't know, it just sucks that it's never easy.