love cycle to strive for

What do we as humans strive for? What is it that we desire so much that having it determines in essence our own happiness. I think that when we are young these things include getting that cool video game or bike or even pair of skis. By the time we enter the real world we strive to get the best paying job, that brings out the nicest whip, and the millionaire mansion in the gated community. There is nothing wrong with desiring these things, it is not wrong to be a little materialistic. But the key is I do not believe that u can truly want such things in life without first having ur own life in order. Case in point myself. My goals in late april were to take care of my girlfriend and be a good friend to my friends, I strived for the good grades, the good job, having the dough. But after another unhealthy life changing summer, I just want to be with my friends and girl again. I feel as though often in the past people envied me because I was always apt to have a lotta good friends. But the reason I did is because I saw the good in everyone…I saw how chill bryan’s lax buddies were at his formal, I learned how great E and Dre and B-more were the more we started hanging out, I got to see that neal and his crew was damn tight to just do whateva with. I loved everyone I encountered, and for that I am forever grateful because my friends and those who show me love always get love right back from me, and this is like a domino effect because I can be like “Dude evan ur the man I love you” and he would dish it right back at me, cuz evan is a cool cat no doubt. But then it spirals because evan might be talking about me with some of his other buddies or I might be talking about him with my girlfriend and we could sing our praises to each other so that then that friends of evan’s is gonna show me love too…and like I say ima show love to anyone who shows me some so it’s the cycle of love. And people without this cycle may be jealous of say me, someone who does have a love cycle. So what I am getting at here today is that right now I miss all my friends. I am gonna miss passin them in the halls visiting them in their rooms, or in mine, chattin around with them during meals, playin ball out on the courts, and me getting schooled at it, I am gonna miss not seeing the most beautiful wonderful girlfriend I have ever had and not being able to spend my late nights with her. I am gonna miss it. And I can’t wait to get it back so I can again dream and strive for getting that car that house that yacht, u know tha basics. Holla at me anytime. U know the digits