so close

First off, I have been slacking on updating this so to my millions of readers...my bad. But anyway, if you know what's been going on lately then this will make sense and if not then this probably won't but try and stay with me. All I can think about is all the great stuff that I have planned. I have a great summer still planned which should include a great job, visiting with all my friends from home, and trips to wherever I please. So far however, this summer has been the direct opposite. I haven't even been home yet, and I don't fully know when I will get hom although I am hoping that it will be the day after tomorrow. Every moment of every day has been full of stress. And its not the type of stress that I like, its the type of stress that screws up lives. I have been out of school for two weeks and I haven't been able to enjoy my summer yet. Everything has been pretty shitty, for lack of better words. But that being said, an amazing thing has happened. For the first time in as long as I can remember I feel like my future is so close to coming into shape. Things that I imagined doing I will be doing soon. Friends as good as I always wanted are actually my friends now. And when I did go back to Virginia a few days back, I caught myself being so happy so many times in spite of all of the stress around me. And although I wish I could take credit for it the credit must go to those who make me happy. I love my room mate and sean and brandy and jenn and they are what made my trip back to Virginia as good as it was. They are incredible. What's more is this girl. She makes me so happy. The two days I spent with her back there was incredible. I don't think she realizes how lucky I am to have her, and how much I already miss her. And that's where I am so close. Because on the one hand I might not be seeing any of these people for what really would be a very long time. On the other hand, if I can just get that good news, and get the go ahead that I am indeed healthy, then I don't think it would be an exaggeration to say that all of my dreams and goals are going to start to come true. I kind of feel like a dog on a leash that is just waiting to be let loose so that it can run off and chase down something. I am chasing all my goals, I just need to be let go.